Shut up
   I have no idea why the hell I'm so tired today, tired AND hungry. I mean, I got the usual amount of sleep that I usually get and I've eaten way more than I usually eat, but I'm still tired and freaking hungry. I swear I was about to fall asleep at work and that never happens. I think it's partially because even though I did get enough hours of sleep, I didn't get quality sleep. Just because I thought about stuff and kinda realized that I'm a bad person especially to those that are close to me.
   It seems the closer I am to you, the meaner I am to you. The less I think about consequences to what I say or do. Telling friends to "shut up", or "I hate you", getting them in "boston crabs" or kidney punching them and making them cry, or forgetting to pick you up or forgetting to call you, and just completely not thinking when I open my mouth on several occassions. You'd think that I would learn...but I don't. I say that I will try to get better, and I really do try. I apologize, I'm sorry, and I really am...but what sucks is that they have to tell me that I did something wrong instead of me realizing what I did wrong by myself. Yeah, so am I a good friend? I'd like to think so...and hopefully you guys know that I'm not being serious when I do stupid things like that. And if I do say, or do something stupid that upsets you, call me out on it...bring it to my attention because I'm so oblivious and I promise I won't get mad or defensive....well, at least try not to. So, if I'm mean to you, you can take that as a compliment that I really think you're a close friend, even though I'm gonna try to change that now. I don't remember being so cynical, so sarcastic, and so bitter when I was younger back in high school. I don't know what it was that just made me bitter like I am. Well, I guess it's a good thing that I know how I am now so I can try to change it.
   Oh yeah, I love "ER" one of the best shows out there, that and "Alias" are the best shows on regular TV. They're both high in action and drama and suspense. You gotta love it! Yeah, but the one person that I love to hate on ER is that stupid Red Headed Dr. dude...i have no idea what his name is but he's a jackass and stupid ass.
   Hooray it's the weekend! I love it! Such is the life of Joe...

So whatcha giving up?
   Lent has finally arrived and so begins another 40 days of not eating meat on Fridays and of giving up something for Lent. So what am I giving up? I thought about giving up meat/poultry but I don't think I can do that. So what am I giving up? I'm giving up soda, I'm giving up fast food with the exception of salads, I'm giving up red meat (so I can still eat chicken and during the cruise this is one of the things I might break). And finally I'm going to make it safe for girls to take showers in my bathroom without fear of getting pregnant. Pretty good, huh?
   So how many of you think that Ash Wednesday is a Holy Day of Obligation? Well, YOU'RE WRONG!!! I keep on telling people that Ash Wednesday ISN'T a holy day of obligation and they insist that it is. Well, according to the U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops it isn't! SO HA! I'm right and you're wrong! HA HA HA HA HAAAAAAAAAAAAA HA. Yeah, not very Catholic of me, huh? But this shouldn't keep you from going to church. I think it's a good thing to go to church on Ash Wednesday but keep in mind the gospel that they always say during Ash Wednesday. It basically says that a lot of people try to "show off" their holiness and for those people, the ashes are a way to show off to other people that they're spiritual or something like that. Yeah, but go to church anyways.
   Yeah, that's it for now. Wish me luck on my Psych test which I'll be taking instead of going to church. But at least today isn't a Holy Day Of Obligation. Such is the life of Joe...

Damn you Jevon
   So I don't think I'm gonna study for my stupid Psych test tomorrow. I think I'll just go over it a little right before the test.
   So yeah, "damn you Jevon". The last time I saw him we started to talk about some serious stuff....X-Men comics. He told me that Joss Whedon is gonna write a new book, "Astonishing X-Men". JOSS WHEDON! If you don't know who that is, he's the dude that wrote Buffy, he writes "Angel" and so that basically guarantees that "Astonishing X-Men" is gonna be awesome. I hope. So damn Jevon because he basically got me back into the freaking comic book store after a year of being sober. I went to the shop the next day and dropped a good $20 on some comics. Reading these comics freaking is just gonna snowball and snowball until I'm spending my usual $80 a month on comics! Yup, you read right...I used to spend close to $80 a month on comics! That's why I quit, that's why I wanna sell a lot of my crap comics, that's why I'm only gonna limit myself to 3 titles or so. The end.
   So you know what one of my favorite story arcs in X-Men is? It's Grant Morrison's run on New X-Men from issue #114-154. I've only read up to #138 which is BEFORE the most shocking issues ever. Yeah, but his run on New X-Men was awesome because he changed so much about them and made them more "real". Killing everyone on Genosha INCLUDING Magneto, Emma Frosts new mutation, Beast new appearance, Cyclops having an affair with Emma Frost, and the biggest surprise of them all.... yeah well, it was an awesome run. I hope that Joss Whedon's run is just as awesome.
Ok, that was my geek entry this week. Such is the life of Joe...

Decisions decisions
   I did so freaking bad in my Econ test 2 weeks ago. Out of 40 questions I only got 39 correct! DAMMIT! That's so freaking bad. Seriously. If you saw the stupid question that I missed then you'd be mad too. But because my freaking Econ test was so freaking easy, now I'm lazy to study for my Psych test on Wednesday. I mean, I finally read all the chapters that I was supposed to read this past weekend. But now I'm getting lazy to study. I figure it's a multiple choice test so it should be fairly easy right? But then I'm scared that it won't be so easy...dammit!!! Decisions decisions.
   Decisions decisions...should I buy "City Of God" on Region 2 DVD or just wait for it to come out here in that States? Same question applies to the "Trainspotting" DVD.
   Oh yeah so I kinda need to borrow a scanner since I'm planning to put a lot of stuff on eBay now. So ummmm Jon? Cici? can I borrow a scanner if you aren't using yours? Thanks!!! such is the life of Joe...

Daw
   Did I ever tell you how much I love hanging out with what I like to call the "LA People", the group of Cile's old high school friends. Why do I like hanging out with the LA People? It's because of their stories, they all go way back and they have hillarious stories of what they did in high school, college, last week, etc. It's also because they're so tight that they can bag on each other which is freaking hillarious. But the reason I love hanging out with the LA People is because they like me, they really like me. I feel the love when I kick it with them. Cile told me that they usually hate everyone and don't let anyone really into their group...so I was really happy and honored that they seem to let me in and kick it with them. Yeah, I say it seems that way...but I'm sure they talk all this bad stuff about me when I'm not there. HA!
   Yeah, but to celebrate Anna's birthday with the LA People we went to Gordon Biersch in Pasadena. Now this is the first time that I've been to Pasadena. I know, I know...people couldn't believe me when I told them I've never been there. It's a really cool place just to go shopping or to hang out and people watch because there's a lot of people to watch. I like that they have crosswalks where you can walk diagonally through the streets. That's awesome. Basically the day was spent eating lunch at Gordon Biersch, doing some window shopping, and then chilling at Coffee Bean in the freaking cold, and eating some pho later on (mmmmm...pho was pho-king good). Good times good times. Good times because I haven't really kicked it with the LA People in a long ass time. And good times because I now know how to use the tagalog word "daw" in a sentence daw. Right daw? Such is the life of Joe...daw

Somewhere Over The Rainbow
   Ok, so Valentines Day was spent with 5 Dates watching "50 First Dates". It was a grand time. Revolving Sushi is da bomb and the movie was hillarious. Rob Schneider is freaking funny!!! Great story, great images of Hawaii as it should be enjoyed, away from Waikiki and just chilling in empty beaches, and a great soundtrack. They played Iz's version of "Somewhere Over The Rainbow" and I swear that song gets to me everytime. I always tear up whenever I hear that song. Why you ask? Well, it's because of "E.R.". It's the song that played on the episode where Dr. Green (Anthony Anderson) dies. I dunno....it just hit me and really made me sad.
   I think that it has to do with the fact that Dr. Green died of cancer on the show and also had a teenager dealing with him dying, so there's a little similarity (however little) with my Mom's life. She was a doctor, she died of cancer, I was a teenager then and sometimes I feel guilty that I do as much as I should have. On "E.R." Dr. Green's teenage daughter was in the rebellious mood but also I think she was in denial that her dad's gonna die. She ignored him, and just stayed away from him even though she knew he was dying. I sometimes feel like I was the same way. If I remember this correctly, I remember Mom telling us that she only had 2 weeks to live. But did that make me go out and spend as much time as I could with her? No...I just went on my daily business, which at that age is meaningless. I remember when she was in the hospital and I was just restless and really didn't want to be there and I honestly don't remember ever telling her "I love you" every time I left her room. I remember Dad having to tell me to spend some time with Mom. Can you believe that!!! I had to be told to spend time with my dying Mom! Yeah, I can defend myself and say that I was freaking in denial that Mom was dying and just wanted to ignore it so that it might not happen. But that's no excuse at all. Yeah, so whenever I hear that song my way of thinking goes from "E.R." to my Mom's life...that's why I get emotional when I hear it.
   Ok, that's it for now....I have more to blog about...so that means new entries every day this week! Hooray daw! Such is the life of Joe...

Friday the 13th part 2004
   Yeah so this past Friday was a Friday the 13th. It's supposed to be a bad luck day or something. I heard that it started because the Jews killed Jesus on Friday the 13th. HA! I mean, Jesus was killed on Friday the 13th. But that doesn't make any sense because wasn't the calendar different back then? I think the months were different or something, but I think the days and stuff were still the same, so it could be possible. Anyways...yeah, all this stupid controversy over Mel Gibson's "Passion Of The Christ" movie that's coming out that they're fearing will bring on some anti-semitism. The way I look at it...it's BECAUSE of all their complaining and stuff over it that they're making it into such a bigger deal than it would've been. I bet you if they would've stayed quiet no one would've though of that at all. It looks like a great movie but really intense. Oh well...don't worry watching that movie won't make me hate Jews.
   So Friday the 13th was a fun filled day. Roscoe's with some of JAC Crew and Associates...mmmmmmm....Roscoe's is soooo good. Then Gee and I (no Chris...not Gee and Ai...HA HA HA!) went to O-Sushi in Brea for Sheila's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEILA!!! I haven't been there for a while and I guess that it's now the happening place to be along with Bar 330 across the street. There was a long line and everything! Crazy! It was cool chilling and stuff and feeling old while playing with the young-uns. Hope you had a great time Sheila!
   Friday the 13th was also Anna's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA! Yeah...celebrating Anna's birthday will go on another blog since lunch is over and I have to go back to work. Ok....have a great day everyone!!! Such is the life of Joe...

Going through the motions
   So this weekend got me thinking a little bit. Got me thinking about some deep issues in my life that Iya brought out...but that's another story, daw. HA! Ummmmmm...yeah, but since this weekend was Valentines Day I just thought about me and relationships. I mean, you look around and you see some ugly ass people with girlfriend/boyfriends. I know I'm not the pick of the litter but if they can have girlfriends/boyfriends, why can't I? Finding this person that feels the same way for you that you feel for her is way too hard. I mean, I could get in a relationship with someone that I really don't care about or have feelings for just so that I can have a "girlfriend". You know...just to have someone around so I won't be so lonely and maybe after a while I can actually learn to like that person. Just a "girlfriend" by title and perks and just go through the motions but no real feelings involved in my part...just so I won't be alone. Don't get me wrong though....I'm not lonely...I'm just alone. There's a difference I think I choose to be alone whereas you can't choose to be lonely, you know? Yeah, just random thoughts that popped into my head. Ok....I hope everyone had a great Valentines Day. I know I did...I had 5 dates (Fantone, Anna, Iya, Gwen, and Leia)...went to Revolving Sushi and watched "50 First Dates". Good times good times. Such is the life of Joe...

Xuxa
   Remember Xuxa? Well, just a random memory came to mind because Tommy told me to "xuxa" or "shut up" then I remembered that I had a friend in high school. His name was Joe Souza. We used to call him Joe Xuxa, or just Xuxa. Ahhhhh...the memories. I wonder what he's doing now. He's probably some rich computer whiz (because he was a computer whiz in high school). My 10th anniversary reunion is gonna be coming up in 2006. Am I going to go? I keep telling myself "no" because high school was just "ehhhhhhhh" for me. But I'm curious to know what happened to all those people I used to hang out with. Hmmmmmmmm....
   You know which 24 Hour Fitness sucks ass? It's the one in Irvine on Culver and Irvine Center Drive. That 24 Hour sucks!!!! I went there today to work out instead of the 24 Hour Sport by the Spectrum today because I had to go home to drop off some fish that my coworker gave me. The reason that I avoid that gym before was because I hated their free weights and I hated their machines. But I decided to go there since it's a lot closer and since I'm only doing shoulders where I just use free weights, but I was hoping that they got new weights because I passed by that gym one day and it looked all remodeled, so I thought it got all new equipment and stuff since now it's a 24 Hour Fitness "Active". Boy was I wrong. I hate those freaking weights...they aren't flat, they have a little knob sticking out on the sides so it freaking hurts when you put them on your knees before popping them up to do some shoulder presses. I freaking couldn't get it up (HEE HEE) so I just decided to leave...forget that gym...never again.
   You know what sucks? This sucks. Basically this high school student made a game winning slam dunk and the crowd rushed the court and that same guy who made the game winning shot suffered a stroke and is now partially paralyzed. SUCKS!!!
   So I just watched "Daredevil" on HBO tonight. It was my first time watching it. People said it sucked. But you know what? I thought it was alright. Maybe because I'm a comic book geek and Daredevil was one of my favorite titles when Brian Michael Bendis was writing it (is he still writing it?) a couple years ago. Yeah, it was entertaning. Oh yeah and guess what! STAR WARS IS COMING TO DVD!!! Hell yeah!!! On Sept. 21st they're releasing "Star Wars: A New Hope", "Star Wars: Empire Strikes Back", and "Star Wars: Return Of The Jedi"!!! Check out this article. But the crappy thing is that it's only a 4 disc set?! You'd think they'd have soooooooooo much more material and it would be at least a 6 disc set. AND it's only the special edition Star Wars movies..the ones Lucas remade like in 1997 with all the CGI added in it. BOOOOOOOO!!!! I'd like the option to see the original, but at least this is better than nothing at all.
   So I smoke a cigar today...stupid idea. Well, stupid because I thought I was still in "hookah" mode and accidentally inhaled that freaking smoke. BAD IDEA!!! I think I like hookahs a lot better, a lot better, they aren't as harsh as cigars. Mmmmm...hookahs, gimmie a couple months or so then I'll have one. Mmmmmm.....
   It's only Wednesday. I hate Wednesdays and Thursdays...they suck because I freaking have class. BLAH! And I have a freaking test on Thursday. I'm not worried about it...but that kinda worries me. HA! Ironic, huh? (is that irony?). Anyways...happy hump day. Such is the life of Joe...

Diet Shmiet
   You know what? Forget freaking diets!!! They're stupid!!! So forget about freaking Atkins!!! Mmmm...carbs are so freaking good!!! To celebrate me going off carbs, I went to Carl's Jr. got a double western bacon cheeseburger Large size. AWESOME! So instead of diets, I'm gonna try exercising a lot more and by exercising I mean doing cardio.
   It's funny how different seasons brings me listening to different styles of music. In the fall/winter I seem to listen to and "buy" more indie music (punk/emo/post-punk, "alternative" however you wanna call it) but now as we're getting closer and closer to spring/summer time I find myself listening and "buying" a lot more hip hop/reggae (well, only Bob Marley). Funny, huh? So my the new person I'm listening to (as mentioned in the last entry) is Common. "Resurrection" and "Like Water for Chocolate" are awesome...I dont' know about "Electric Circus" though...kinda weird. I read that his next album is gonna be more like "Resurrection". I can't wait for that!!! YAY YAY!
   I was really wondering why VH1 is doing all this stuff on hip hop/rap and stuff. It's not only VH1, Bravo also was showing stuff about reggae which was really interesting. Then I relaized that it was Black History Month. Too bad that they only play this stuff during February, because a lot of it is interesting...if not entertaining.
   Well, back to work now. 4 more days until the end of the week! I'm still counting down...such is the life of Joe...

Hookah di Beppos
   You know what? I love hookahs. They're awesome!!! For Rozanno and Danielle's birthday we went to Nara Nara's in the Spectrum and basically smoked a hookah for probably 2 hours. It was awesome. Mmmmm....it was a little weird inhaling the smoke because I'm used to just puffing my cigars, but I eventually got used to it. It's freaking awesome though!!! But after sitting there for 2 hours I started to feel light headed and felt the effects of the nicotine (is there nicotine in hookahs?). Maybe it wasn't the nicotine, maybe it was because I was taking some deep hits. The people kinda forced us to leave and we still had a lot of stuff in the hookah! We were speed smoking it to not let it go to waste!!! We did a couple double hookah's since the people at the other end of the table had one too. Awesome. Yeah, but it was a grand time at Nara Nara's. I hope that Rozanno and Danielle had a great time. Happy Brithday guys!!!
   Oh yeah! I got a cool new ashtray compliments of Nara Nara. It's this dope ass round Dewars Whiskey ashtray with 2 spaces for cigarettes and 2 spaces for cigars. AWESOME! Thanks Gee for pointing them out! Now I can relax in my backyard smoking a cigar. Actually, I need a propane space heater, and a nice patio table and then I can chill outside. Damn...can't wait until those summer nights. Oh yeah...gotta check out some prices for hookahs online.
   So I was just going through my hip hop "CD's" and started to listen to an album again. I think it's gonna be my album of the month. I mean, I'm by far NOT a hip hop head. I just know what I like...and this album is "Resurrection" by Common (known as Common Sense back then). I think it was Rex who recommended this album to me...and wow, it's grand. Just that one song "I Used To Love Her" makes the whole album worth "buying".
   So another freaking weekend is drawing to a close and another work week is freaking starting. DAMMIT! Hope this week goes fast for you all. Such is the life of Joe...

Office Space
   So I moved into a new office today! HOORAY! I still share my office with my boss/manager, but she's cool. And our office is now a lot bigger and I have a real desk with drawers and everything!!! Now I feel like I can put pictures up and also start chatting at work with good old AIM. Hmmm...well, maybe not so far as the AIM part.
   You wanna know something? Reading textbooks and paying attention in class makes you understand the material so much better! Amazing, huh?! I think my stupid prejudice against Community Colleges and thinking that they're below me is gonna kick my ass. I bet you I'm gonna do bad in my freaking classes because I'm gonna think they're cake just because they're at a JC. I'm actually understanding econ better now that I'm actually paying attention and reading the book. Amazing!!!
   So there's always those annoying people in your freaking class. In one class it's the person that always asks stupid questions every 15 minutes, then there's my other class where these 2 guys are always joking around, talking in class, and answering the teachers questions with stupid answers referring to drugs, drinking, partying, etc. PLUS they think that they're black or something because they keep on saying "word" every time the teacher makes a point (actually they say it more sarcastically than being serious). Yeah, they freaking annoy the hell out of me. Shut the hell up please!!! What's worse is that the teacher sees all this and does nothing about it so it just continues, and it's actually spreading to other students who start talking midlecture! It's so freaking bad!
   So this psych class is actually getting me to learn more about myself, my personality type, etc. Basically I'm learning that I'm one messed up person! HA! Seriously! But I guess it's good to know how messed up you are so you can change it.
   Well, that's it for now. I love Fridays so much....this weekend hopefully won't go as fast as past ones. Such is the life of Joe...

Superbowl Sunday
   So, I said that the Superbowl was gonna suck. And it did...until right before halftime, and until the 4th quarter when the freaking Patriots won on a field goal. That was wussy! In the superbowl you should have to win at by a touchdown...no wussy field goals. I really didn't care who won at all, and when I dont' care...I usually root for the underdog. So I was rooting for the Panthers. Actually, I was rooting for both teams to score because I almost won the pool I was in. That pool actually made the game exciting for me.
   Well, it was good times watching the Superbowl. I spent it at Ed's place. Good times eating, chilling, playing poker, watching the game, watching Janet's boob, and spending time with friends. Thanks goes out to Ed for being a great host, and providing us with way too much food. Mmmmm...the tilapia was awesome. Such is the life of Joe...